I can’t believe how fast this year went. We say that every year, don’t we? The days feel long, but the years feel short. 2025 was a tough one for me. My intention this year was to trust, and while I do feel like I had moments of that, it was harder to maintain than I thought.
Let’s start off with the positive things that happened this year, before my pessimism comes out. First and most importantly, I started dating the love of my life almost a year ago. He is the most honest, kind, and genuine person I have ever met and I’m so lucky to have him. He is my best friend and biggest supporter. Everything a woman could ask for. Oh, and he’s cute too! At work, we moved into our new business building, which has been a work in progress for many years. I also started teaching an MBA class online and I enjoy sharing my love of personal branding and blogging with others. I even traveled to a new place this year, St. Petersburg, Florida.
On the health side of things, I’m ending the year in probably the worst shape I’ve ever been in since I was diagnosed with UC seven years ago (January 4th). I am no longer taking Humira and switched to Skyrizi. I got my first infusion on the 22nd. It was three hours long and the staff made me feel very comfortable. I thought it went well. Once I got home though, I progressively started feeling worse. Body aches, fatigue, diarrhea, abdominal pain, nausea, and chills. I spent Christmas Eve in the ER only to find out that I have C difficile. C diff is a bad bacterial infection in your gut that leads to colitis or an inflamed colon (which I already have). Apparently, I am at high risk of getting this since I have IBD, but now I’m at an even higher risk of getting it again now that I have it. On top of all this, I’ve now lost 15 pounds this year. I look in the mirror and don’t recognize myself anymore, and that’s painful.
In short, I will be on antibiotics for 10 days to try to kill the bad bacteria in my gut. In the meantime, my colitis has decided to flare up instead of letting me get off scot free. Obviously, the timing of all this is very inconvenient over the holidays, but I am resting as much as I can and trying not to push it. Truth is, I don’t know when I’ll start to feel better or even if I can get my next Skyrizi infusion. There is a lot up in the air right now until this clears up. I truly wouldn’t wish this upon anyone.
In addition to my own health issues, my family has had their fair share of health scares this year which only compounds how icky I feel. It has been a lot to deal with mentally and it just keeps coming. So while I am ending the year truly at rock bottom, I have to hold onto hope that it will get better in 2026.
The intention I want to set for 2026 is healing. I’ve probably said this before, but it feels appropriate given my current circumstances. Right now, it’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I could just snap my fingers and I would wake up from this nightmare, but it doesn’t work like that. The best thing I can do is bow my head down and pray that God can heal this. I stumbled across Lauren Daigle’s new song this morning, “Let It Be A Hallelujah” and it felt fitting. I have to believe I’m going through this for a reason and my hallelujah is coming soon.
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Wishing you all a happy and healthy New Year!
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